“I Go to War In My Dreams”

Coast to Coast Radio aftershow paranormal question for Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Coast to Coast Radio with host Ian Punnet in a paranormal discussion with psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/07/11 at 10:37 am


Just about every night, I go to war in my dreams. I’m constantly locked in combat with entities night after night. Just last night, I got in a fight with a thing that had the head of a cougar and a human skeleton body. I ended up throwing him out the windowof a skyscraper.

But, these dreams don’t bother me. I look forward to going to bed. It’s really no big deal.


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Vincent,

I don’t know enough about your circumstances, however I’ll offer the suggestions I can.

Many dreams we have are emotionally based, where we work out our ‘stuff’ from the day’s events. However it’s up to us to learn how to recognize and differentiate what is emotional, and what is ‘something else’. I’ve been experiencing things for so long, I can differentiate in the same way I can tell the difference between Chocolate and Vanilla ice cream.

Many people who have been warriors in previous lives, may continue doing ‘battle’ in the ‘sandbox’ of their dream state. When we are in our ethereal bodies, we can interact with spirit. I’ve been to schools on the other side, both as a student, and as a teacher.

There may be some influences from your waking reality that may carry over into your dream world. I find this helps me identify with the meanings of something without needing the narration of explanation of what’s going on. If you’ve ever seen the TV show Medium ,  the main character Alison Dubois, she sees her prophetic dreams involving bits that she is both familiar with , and those that she isn’t. It’s up to her, to decipher and discern what’s really going on.

My experiences are similar to those depicted in the show. For example, I’m a TV show and movie and comic book geek, so If I see George Clooney in my dreams trying to help someone, I know it’s in reference to Doctor because of a role I identify him with. This is how it works for me , I’ve learned by repetition what all the movie characters and comic book characters mean in my dreams. I take the flavor and the nuances to fill in the blanks of what’s going on. You might take a second look at your dreams from this perspective, to see if any of it fits for you, it may not.

It’s been said that the moles, or birthmarks we have visible on our bodies, is a sign of ‘wounds’ or injury during battles from previous lives. Many people remember doing battle in previous lives.

I myself, since a child always carried my backpack in my left hand, never switching it to my right, no matter how heavy it was. When teased in grade school about the quirk, and why I never switched over to my right to give my left arm a break, I answered without skipping a beat, and having no idea at the time where it came from- ‘That’s my shield arm, I need to keep my right free to hold a sword’. Yes….curious indeed…lol, yet there it was.

Now if you’re doing battle with Dark Energies of some sort, you must be doing all right! It looks like you have the ability to replace your fear with another emotion, thereby the dark energies can’t feed and grow from any fear off you. You also look forward to going to bed, it’s almost like a giant playground you get to go to, so it sounds like you’re doing just fine. I myself love ethereal paint ball, with glowing balls of colored energy emitting from my hands like Spiderman shooting his web. Well, that’s just me…lol.

Enjoy your time in the giant sandbox in your Dream World, and perhaps just set your intention upon going to bed for a safe journey, and put out some protection for yourself that no harm will come to you there.

Thank you for sharing your experience, and I hope this was helpful.

Namaste, Monica


“Can I Develop My ‘Dream State’ Occurances?”

Coast to Coast Radio aftershow paranormal question for Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Coast to Coast Radio with host Ian Punnet in a paranormal discussion with psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 11/07/2010 8:24 AM

“Dream State”

When I’m almost asleep, I see moving scenes of people, places, animals, etc.

Is this anything similar to what you experience?

Can I develop these occurrences into something more as a person would develop a skill?

I look forward to listening to you on Coast to Coast.

Thanks very much,


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Joe,

What you describe is exactly what I see, and yes, I believe you can work on developing these skills.

My skills grew as a result of continuous immersion into nightly experiences. Believe me, growing up I asked for ‘the manual’ every opportunity I could…lol!

I’ve often recommended the book, Toltec Dreaming: Don Juan’s Teachings on the Energy Body by Ken Eagle Feather, because I personally resonated with his experiences and descriptions. I like to offer his perspective and exercises for anyone who is seriously looking to expand their dream journey’s. He goes into great detail to explain the various dream states, and their possible meanings.

I hope you enjoyed the Coast to Coast program, and thank you for listening.

You may also choose to check out other people’s similar queries that are answered on the website page Ask the Fringe Dweller.

I plan to compile everyone’s Coast to Coast responses in a special page, as the feedback is overwhelming, and a wonderful resource to share.

Thank you for writing in, I hope this was helpful,

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


‘Invisible Helpers’ written by C.W. Leadbeater in 1915

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Paranormal comments and testimonials for psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Author CW Leadbeater, circa 1914, a paranormal lucid dreamer similar to psychic, artist and 'Fringe Dweller' author Monica HolySubmitted on 2010/11/01 at 8:04 am
Hi Monica,

I am reading your book and I am amazed!  Thanks for writing it and bringing your experiences into our awareness.

I have also read ‘Invisible Helpers’ written by C.W. Leadbeater in 1915.  A free copy is available on Google Books.  In Chapter 5, page 34, he sort of describes what you do.  I believe that there are so many that help in the in-between.  There is so much yet to be discovered.

I stumbled upon your book in the library and I am so thankful.  Please continue writing.  It helps me to develop on my journey.  You are a gem!



Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Erma,

Thank you for your kind words.

I’m so glad to hear the book is available at the library. The intention behind the Fringe Dweller Book, was to share my experiences, and make it readily available to those seeking out information, and hopefully lessening the isolation and fear often accompanying paranormal experiences.

Thank you for sharing the book ‘Invisible Helpers’. I’ll be looking into it. It’s rather exciting to think someone in 1915 wrote of similar experiences, like a treasure chest I can explore!

I too believe many out there share a broad range of experiences. It’s been wonderful that many people have written in and shared their stories, I’m still working on posting them all.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


“I hear Voices during my Lucid Dreaming and OBE”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/02/25 at 2:33 pm

Hi Monica 🙂

I have a question for you about a recent experience of mine.  Throughout my life I have had many intuitive or “paranormal” (for lack of a better word) experiences such as knowing things before they happen, seeing/sensing spirits, and having lucid dreams, but they have all been widely interspersed through the years (I’m 22 now) and fairly infrequent.  I had my first OBE at 17 and another last year.

I began listening to these hypnotic trance CDs about two weeks ago that have really been putting me into a deep state every time I listen to them, and ever since I have been experiencing lucid dreaming almost every other night, including intense flying dreams, and last week I had another OBE.  It’s funny, because the CDs are only meant to bring you into more of an abundance mentality, but it seems like they have opened up more channels for me.

What’s most interesting is the experience that I had while I was out of body.  It started with a dream, then I was flying over the ocean, (in the most conscious, lucid state I have ever experienced while dreaming) then I was floating barely a foot above my body in bed and feeling myself out of my body and yet I could feel my limbs buzzing at the same time.  Here’s the weird part: as I was laying there, I suddenly heard this voice.  And we’re not talking like dream-hearing, where you know you heard it but it doesn’t really make any sound.  No, I heard this with my ears.  It was almost like picking up static from a radio frequency.

The first thing the voice said was a long string of numbers and letters, something similar to: “M41IYIYIYIYIY.”  Then it spoke a couple of sentences in English, but get this: I couldn’t comprehend it.  I heard each word, recognized it as an English word, knew that the sentence should make sense, but as hard as I tried I simply could not put any meaning to the words, and had no idea what he was saying.  Then, it gets stranger: I heard MY voice respond – with another sentence I couldn’t comprehend – but I wasn’t trying to say anything back.  I get the feeling it wasn’t me, it just was my voice somehow.  Then the other voice responded, and I heard, clear as day: “can you hear me?”

This was the first time I actually felt like the voice was “aware” of me, so to speak, and was actually addressing ME, floating/laying there, and I could understand what he was saying.  The impression that I got was that it was surprised by my hearing it.  I tried to respond with a simple “yes,” but without meaning to I was trying to speak with my lips, rather than just thinking it, and I felt my lips move but all that came out was this long garbled noise like you would hear if someone tried to talk underwater, and my attempting to physically move is what I think snapped me out of it and back into my body.  As I lay there, the voices literally went quiet around me and the silence in the room grew SO loud.  I’ve never experienced anything like that before.

So my question is, do you have any idea what the voices could have been or what I was hearing/tuning in to?

I understand if you can’t respond but if you do I really appreciate it!  Thanks.  🙂


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Dear Tien,

Well it certainly sounds like you had quite the OBE (out of body experience)!  I understand how challenging it can be to describe such an event to others who haven’t had a similar experience. Somehow, the depth of the supernatural feeling never seems to get expressed quite the way we wish it could. That’s when the English language with ‘words’ seems somehow cumbersome. It can be very frustrating. You did very well, I can relate to a lot of what you described!

Let me start off, who or what exactly the voices were, I can’t tell you specifically. Perhaps a guide, another spirit, your own higher self, the possibilities are many.   I can however offer information that may lead  you to finding out.  I hope you’ll bare with me.

If you’ve already had similar OBE and Astral Dream experiences, you are likely of a ‘sensitive’ nature. Like most psychics, that means any methods of deep relaxation can increase the likelihood of deeper experiences- you’ll find yourself going further ‘down the rabbit hole’.  This goes hand in hand with something I like to call ‘The Art of Allowing’. However, this is not as easy as it may sound.

I’ve often referred to my ‘back seat driver’, the logical mind that comes along for the ride as a passenger during my lucid dreaming experiences. Finding what makes a good marriage between the art of allowing, and the observer part of the logical mind to enable the experience not to crash to an abrupt halt, can be a tedious balancing act that improves over time with each experience.

Most people have a really tough time ‘letting go’ of the how, what, when, where, why of things.  Hence, I would make a lousy journalist, because most of those things are irrelevant to me during a spiritual experience, because they tend to override the whole concept of ‘being’ in the moment of something.

Having the feeling of being SAFE during your astral travel, will open up and enable you to allow more freely. The more in the moment you are, the more potential you have to take things in, and you’ll pick up on more details each time. However, another key element in all this, is to do this with an open mind, free of EXPECTATIONS.

Many people have had one pivotal experience, which was joyously overwhelming. As soon as they try to REPEAT the experience, retracing over the same steps, disappointment is most often the result. Expectations are in direct conflict with the art of allowing. No two experiences are identical. See the dilemma?

As for the ‘voices’, or communication, I’ve had similar experiences. Again, the logical mind along for the ride is doing it’s dandiest to ‘decipher’ what’s going on, and gets twitter pated when it can’t seem to find ‘the words’ to do so. I’ve often described this type communication as complete thoughts that enter in a nano second, almost streaming in. For now, try to let go of all the ‘what’, and just allow the gist, the emotion, the overview to come through. When I journal these dreams, I often find myself stringing together 5-6 words that on their own, wouldn’t completely relay what I heard or felt. However, together in a string, I can revisit the event, and pick out the prime elements/aspect of each word that is relevant. Together as a whole, I then have the key thought and emotion I felt, that I couldn’t otherwise express.

Setting your INTENTION before going to bed, or meditating, also helps. You’d be surprised what the universe sends you in response. Most of us just aren’t aware enough, to take in the subtle messages that come our way when we’re truly open.

If you are feeling safe in your experiences, you can try the suggestions I’ve offered. Keep a journal, write down whatever comes to mind, WITHOUT questioning the logistics of it. Remember that colors have vibrations, so do emotions. Everything is interconnected.

The more experiences you have, the more you’ll recognize as familiar when you have new ones. As time progresses, your ‘observations’ will become keener, without interrupting the flow of the experience. You’re back seat driver will take more ‘notes’ in silence, then speaking up and interfering. You’ll potentially be in a better place to ask questions such as ‘Are you my spirit guide?’, or ‘Who are you?’. Upon waking, you’re recollection of things will have a broader spectrum. Hopefully, you’ll also have some answers!

There is a wonderful book I’ve recommended for those seeking the nitty gritty on details surrounding OBE’s, and astral travel:  Toltec Dreaming: Don Juan’s Teachings on the Energy Body by Ken Eagle Feather. He offers in depth information on the various states of astral dreaming, and offers suggestions for levels of control while doing so. You may find more answers here that are specific to you.

When I first set out to find out some answers, I was frustrated that none of the ‘formulaic’ approaches available seemed to work for me. Once I let go of that, accepted things to simply unfold, I got the best results.

Remember that we are all unique ‘spirits having the human experience’, hence our results will differ. I wish you safe and happy travels!

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


“Spreading the Message to other Fringe Dwellers”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Paranormal comments and testimonials for psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/12/25 at 4:18 pm

Your name Monica Holy says it. It is holy work you are doing.

Many, many people do this work. All souls of evolvement help out.

Me too. I experienced helping a lone arctic explorer who had called out for help. I was in meditation at the time. I went to his side. He felt my presence and was comforted. Same with a large boat going down. I was under water helping to guide the souls who were passing over. 9/11 was a major time for such as us. We are all put to use.

The spiritual hierarchy are here in abundance. The time demands it. I wish you well in getting
the message out there for those who have no idea just what lies within them.

God Bless,

Bhavani, England.

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Bhavani

My name is what it is, I can live with it now, however in high school growing up-well that’s another matter altogether lol!

It’s wonderful to hear from another Fringe Dweller. Thank you for sharing your story. This is what getting the message out there is all about, people like you coming forward in open dialogue about your experiences. It re-confirms that we are not alone in our journey as Fringe Dwellers.

I hope hearing and reading more about this subject, will bring people some understanding and lessen any fears they may have surrounding supernatural, paranormal, psychic, medium and lucid dream experiences they have encountered. You are so right in mentioning all the people out there who may have no idea of what lies within them. Let’s hope all this discussion brings about new untapped potential for good things.

“Embrace your inner Freakdom-make it your Dance Partner” is what I like to encourage!

Thank you for spreading the message,

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


“Do images flashing in my Mind’s Eye mean I’m Psychic?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Submitted on 2009/12/24 at 6:58 am

Hi Monica,

Sometimes at night I used to get images flashing in my minds eye before I went to sleep and they made no sense to me.

I heard you talking about that this happens to you before you do what you do.

Maybe what I am experiencing is different ‘cause I don’t lucid dream, maybe I am psychic?

What do you think about these images I get?


(BTW  I’m a guy even though I tend to have a more girlish first name hehe.)

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hi Shannon,

When I was speaking of  ‘Images flashing in my Minds Eye’ in that limbo state before drifting off to sleep, it was in specific reference to improving one’s ability to remember dreams, and improve lucid dreaming skills.

I’ve talked to many people who also get the ‘screen in their mind’s eye’. It doesn’t seem to be an uncommon occurrence. Perhaps it’s how far one takes that experience that denotes one’s ‘ability’ to lucid dream. Lucid Dreaming is the awareness  that you’re in a dream, with the potential to control your actions in the dream itself.

Whether  this particularly denotes psychic activity, I couldn’t say, because from early childhood to early adulthood, I had all my psychic experiences with a different method of falling asleep.

As for are you psychic ?-what I can suggest, is to take note of  other aspects in your life. Do you show signs of being sensitive in your waking reality – such as Clairvoyance, Clairsentient, Clairaudient, Empathic? What and how do you feel on a daily basis? Only you know what you feel on a deeper level. Become the ‘Observer’ of yourself to explore these possibilities further to see if you might be psychic.

What I can do here, is take a moment to expand on my process of falling asleep and stepping through portals to other dimensions by clarifying the difference from how the process  occurred during early childhood/early adulthood, and how it unfolds now.

Early childhood it happened naturally, without any effort on my part. I would simply find myself dropped into a dream like a ‘Movie already in Progress’. I never had the ‘images flashing in my Mind’s Eye’.  As I grew up, and questioned the ‘how, what, and why’ of things, my state of mind before sleep changed to ‘expect the unexpected’, and eventually grew into a fearfulness towards falling asleep.

I now went through a period in my life, where I wasn’t getting the proper sleep I needed.  I was in a constant state of Hyper Vigilance with both my waking and dreaming realities melting together in an endless loop.  However, I began to work with my mentor Carolyn Long, who  gave me the tools to better understand and cope with my gifts. This also meant I had to find a new sleep pattern that would give me the rest I needed. I had to learn all over again how to relax, and allow myself to fall asleep.

What I discovered with this new method of winding down for sleep time, was that in the act of relaxed meditation, I would find myself in that state of limbo I now talk about…where you’re about to drift off but can still here the dog barking outside. It was here, that the images would start to flash across the ‘Screen in my Mind’. The images would continue to stream, when suddenly I would feel the ‘switch’ go off in the form of a ‘synaptic snap’, and I’d find myself dropped into a dream like a ‘movie already in progress’. From here I take my lucid dreaming skills and apply them to the best of my ability, incorporating them with all the psychic-mediumship skills I’ve acquired in my life’s experiences.

Retraining myself to fall asleep via this calmer state of being , I’d have to venture that this was the more common and healthier process people who meditated experienced.

Know that you’re not the only one that does this, and perhaps look at it as a free ticket to a wondrous Movie Theatre. Have a positive experience by setting your intentions to do so, before falling asleep. Let the images unfold as they will, and enjoy the show!

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller


‘My husband Passed, I wish he could show me he’s Happy’

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/12/19 at 12:36 pm

I  heard of you on Whitley Strieber’s website this morning.  My husband passed away in July of this year.  You have said that no one is alone when they pass. How can I know that he is happy.  I wish he could show me.


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Dear Karen,

My condolences on your loss.

It is very common that we ourselves find it difficult to move onto the next stage in our grieving (letting go) until we know our loved ones are alright.

I would like to offer what comfort I can to you when I say that although it’s been months to you, it may only feel like minutes to your husband on the other side.  Be patient.  He may try to communicate to you that he’s alright where he is in ways that are very personal to the two of you.  When that happens, as subtle as it may happen, be present, be open, and mark the moment as a Visitation.

Also, pay attention in your dreams.  Very often it is easier for our loved ones to meet us on a level playing field when we are our ethereal ourselves.  Naturally the shame is that not everyone is lucid during their dreams,  and therefore may or may not remember the visit when they awaken.  Of course setting your intention of best wishes and love to him before falling asleep will go a long way.

Sweet dreams.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller


“I can Bi-Locate, and go into a Void too”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Paranormal comments and testimonials for psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/12/19 at 8:56 am

Hi Monica,

I am a part Mayan Indian woman born psychic and an inter-dimensional traveler.

I have the double iris. I have been doing similar work to yours for years, only I just help the entities I see around me or can call in. I can bi-locate so I am conscious on more than 1 level at a time When I do this rescue work. I do dream work, helping people with their inner growth or problems.

What fascinated me about the interview I heard with you and Marla Frees  was your talking about the Void. I go into a Void, too. I sometimes call it The Great Silence. Only my Void is not black. It’s lighter but I can’t tell you what color it is. I’ve never heard anyone talk about the kind of Void I see before. But, like yours, there is nothing there, only silence and endlessness. I just suddenly go there and often remain for hours. Then I am back to my human consciousness, having no idea where I’ve been or what, if anything, I’ve done.

I am also an artist, a healer working with a body cleansing diet for physical healing and using my psychic abilities to remove emotional trauma.
I live now in Chapala Mexico.


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Justyn,

Thank you for writing in with your description of  The Void. In my radio interview with Marla Frees I had described my perspective of The Void from a dream experience I painted and titled ‘The Grid’. It was such a pleasure to talk with Marla because of the common ground we share. I found many of her experiences, although slightly different, validated many of mine, from a different perspective. Your description of the Void offers that too. You also mention bi-location, which is a more accurate and effective way of describing the dream body experiences I have.

Thank you for sharing your experience and the healing practices you offer. It’s truly wonderful that this form of open dialogue is removing the cloud with what we think is ‘The Unknown’ or ‘Strange’, and hopefully lessening the fears surrounding it  as well.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller


“I was Trained to Astral Project and Work with the Dead”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Paranormal comments and testimonials for psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/12/19 at 5:09 am

Hello Monica,

I’m completely amazed right now … reading about what you do ….. because I do
the same thing! Well … it’s similar. I was trained by a Native American Shaman
as a child to astral project and work with the dead as you do. I can also do it lucid .. and I think it’s very similar .. if not the same thing.

Wow! I’m so happy to know someone else is doing this! There are so many people that need help!

Thank you so much for making me feel not so alone.


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Valerie,

Thank you for your kind words. How incredible to be trained by a Native Shaman!  It’s wonderful to hear that this type of teaching exists.

I couldn’t be happier from all the responses that say the book Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift has helped people in not feeling so alone.

And yes, there are so many people that need help, and it’s good to hear of other ‘Fringe Dwellers’ out there. Blessings to all your offerings in your dream journeys.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller


“I wish I could do Astral Projection.”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Paranormal comments and testimonials for psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/11/17/at 9:14 am

I was fascinated by the book Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift . Wish I could train myself to do astral projection.


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hi Justin,

Astral Projection…yes…like the character ‘Prue’ in Charmed.  That would be really cool!  As for training for that…hmmmm. No reason why it’s not possible. It’s completely  realistic if you consider that when I’m in my dream state, I’m traveling with my ethereal dream body. At the scene of an accident occurring in the ‘waking reality’, people close to death are aware of my presence. They look directly at me,  and see me, whereas the police, firefighters and paramedics on the scene clearly don’t. That to me indicates if someone is vibrating at a particular frequency…they CAN see your ethereal body.

So, if you work on your Lucid Dreaming skills, as in really interacting in them to a state of focused intent and control, it should be possible. A better understanding of meta and quantum physics would also be beneficial.

There are many books out there that go into great detail of the various states and levels of lucid dreaming. For a deeper  explanation, and technical approach, I suggest the book by  Toltec Dreaming: Don Juan’s Teachings on the Energy Body Ken Eagle Feather as he describes his experiences with the Monroe Institute.

Good luck with your ‘travels’.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


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