“Recovering Catholic”

Coast to Coast Radio aftershow paranormal comment for Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/07/21 at 6:54 am

“Coast to Coast Broadcast”


I listened to you on Coast to Coast last night and I find your words of assisting transitioning souls fascinating and self-rewarding.

In this world of deceit where truth is as rare as a 5 leaf clover I don’t know who to believe or trust anymore. Most people these days can weave awesome and believable stories with such fantasy, hope and flare, and all for the almighty dollar.

As a people we are starving for some semblance of Truth and Guidance if not in this world then in the next, what we are given is “Reality” TV and
Politicians with Emmy award winning lies.

I trust you are a genuine breath of fresh air, at the very least I am glad that your dream state brings satisfaction to you.

I would like to hear from you.

Recovering Catholic,

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Ron,

Thank you for the kind words, and I love your sign off of ‘Recovering Catholic’… :).

When asked, I  usually mention that I was raised Catholic, but I don’t acknowledge a specific denomination now. I’ve had so many experiences in my life. Some contradict the teachings I grew up with. Others embrace elements of other religions. I tend to view ‘Religion’ as a specific ‘structure’. The beliefs and faith I have of ‘God’ revolve more around the experiences I’ve been blessed to be part of.

Once I was so afraid to speak my truth about my experiences, however I’ve grown to see how the isolation of that virtually suffocated who I was. I feel like I have a second lease on life now that I can speak openly, and live in the authenticity of who I am.

When the idea of creating a book came about, my co-author and I felt it was important for people in similar circumstances to resonate with the truth about their own life, and have the courage to ‘Come out of the Psychic Closet’, even if just to family and close friends. It can be a burden to keep it locked up.

I hope the opportunity to share my experiences encourages people to start a dialogue about their own. If it makes a difference in someone’s life,
I’m grateful.

I think the more comfortable people are with themselves, the more truth in others they are able to recognize. There is a resonance with something that rings true for them.

However it certainly is getting more challenging to discern the truth with what we are given through Television and media. Perhaps we’ll have
to become more introspective, and listen with our heart more.

I’ve noticed the more heart centered I become, the more wondrous the experiences are in the ‘sandbox’ of the Other Side (and the waking
reality too).

The challenge to living a heart centered life, is to maintain the discernment of things that go against your authenticity, and recognize them in time.

Thank you for your kind words, and I’m glad you enjoyed the Coast to Coast program.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


“The Truth of Love and Compassion”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Paranormal comments and testimonials for psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Submitted on 2010/06/14 at 4:59 pm

I just finished reading the Fringe Dweller book.  I have never in my life felt so positive and completely engrossed in such a novel, so far at least, who knows what I will read next.

I just wanted to say that reading this novel really helps to quiet the uncertainty one feels when they enter into this kind of study.  My whole life my mother has talked openly with me about the true nature of god, and the state of things in the universe.  My favorite saying has always been that there is no such thing as “can’t”.  While you don’t outright say it, I get the overwhelming feeling that anything is possible in this world as in others.

Thank you for writing such a beautifully expressive piece of literature. I only hope that more people can start opening their hearts to the truth of love and compassion.

Thank you again.


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Thank you for your kind words Matthew.

I’m glad the book  Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift offered  a positive outlook for you. I too take comfort when a lantern is shedding light in unexplored Paranormal worlds. I think it helps us feel we’re not alone on this journey.

Thank you for expressing your thoughts, it makes a difference when we share what we feel. The more we do this, the more it unites us, and I believe that this enables us to experience unconditional love and compassion even further.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


The Purpose of Dark Energies

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'A question that has come up a number of times needs to be addressed so I will take a poke at it…..What is the purpose of Dark Energy? Why can’t we live in Mr. Roger’s neighborhood all the time or put another way, Why can’t we all just get along?

An overused metaphor but it works.   There is no Light without Dark. We need the contrast to tell the difference.  In life we are energetic light beings walking around in a body having a human experience, and who we are is reflected back to us via those around us.  What I mean by that is how we respond to events placed in our path tells us more of who we are, and furthermore gives us the opportunity to rise to the level of love, and test our beliefs in a very concrete way.  How many heroes arise from the ugliness brought on by tyrants?  Yes, even ‘dark energy’ in the form of another human being allows us to measure ourselves by our core truths and convictions.  Thus, the question of positive and negative polarities themselves come into question.  What is one without the other? Now I’ve answered the question as though the dark energies were externalized, however, there is a dark side that exists within each one of us. The human experience has a wide range of emotions.  Energy is neither good nor bad but thinking makes it so.  What you decide to do with it is a matter of free will, and free will again, will define you. So my answer in short is that dark energy serves a purpose in order to offer you an opportunity to exercise your free will, and thus define what you choose to be. So let me ask you this, “How do you wanna show up?”  Circumstances don’t define us, they reveal us.

After 2300+ odd past lives I can tell you a) I’m a very slow learner and b) I’ve played every role from the self absorbed-control freak bastard to whatever it is I am now.  I’d like to think I’m inching my way towards love, compassion and enlightenment, but I may have a ways to go.  It may take another 99 lives or perhaps in a burst of inspiration I’ll get a hole in one.  The point is we are all eternal beings who will get there eventually on our own schedule.  If we do the math it’s inevitable.  Eternal = a very long time so time or the constant now is literally on your side.  I digress.  If you think of the ‘dark side’ as being an aspect of yourself that you pass through en route to embodying love, then having been the jerk will certainly allow you an insiders peek to understand and ultimately forgive other jerks as they trundle down their dark path reeking havoc on the rest of us. Namaste. The God in me acknowledges the God in you. We are one.  Takes on a whole new meaning when you think of it this way no?

Namaste, Nicole


If Depression was 87.5 fm on the Dial

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'I haven’t quite figured out yet what specific frequencies belong to what range of emotions.  If 87.5 fm referred to Depression then 108.9 would be Gratitude and so on.  I can’t say that there is an actual frequency assigned to each emotion but ‘empathically speaking’ (ok smarty pants I know that’s not a real word but it’s not what I say, it’s what I mean so give it a rest) there is definitely a different ‘feeling’ that accompanies what I will refer to as ‘the lower range’ of emotions vs. the ‘higher range’ of emotions.

I’m not gonna get into one is better than the other.  Anger isn’t bad.  Nor is joy good.  Those are judgments.  They are merely states of being that is all.  I have noticed that emotions that don’t spring from ‘joy’ are sluggish, slower, denser if I can use these terms to qualify something that is abstract.  I can feel it when I’m around someone swimming in the key of  D-minor for example.  It seems that like a chord in music certain emotional states clump together, so someone who lives in the key of anger may also experience an undercurrent of bitterness, resentment, jealousy.  Likewise someone who lives in a state of gratitude may also swim in compassion, consideration and grace, and this state ‘vibrates’ faster.

I recall waking up beside my partner who ‘lives’ in perpetual gratitude and hearing a high pitch ‘hum’ in my ears as well as feeling ‘bees buzzing’ on my skin.  Since I was half asleep part of my conscious mind said, “What the hell is going on?  That’s way too fast.” And my subconscious self replied, “ Go back to sleep.  That’s just Monica.’

Energy field- unplugged.

Our aura changes as we change. As we accept new ideas, and change our perceptions our emotions change along with them.  We are all on this path spanning from the awareness of being a Tyrant like Attila the Hun inching our way towards Buddha or Christ consciousness, and we will all arrive there in our own time.  That is the beauty of not judging.  “Nothing is good nor bad but thinking makes it so.”

“We are all droplets of water in an endless sea, a forgotten divinity.”

I wrote that lyric line years ago to describe the fact that we are all one.  The sea is indivisible from its drops of water and vice versa.    We are all part of a collective consciousness and that consciousness in turn is joined to bloody everything.

As a kid I always wondered how God could know everything.  Then I found out that Creator IS part of every thing.  Clever, clever place to hide.  So the moral of the story is that emotions are merely frequencies and represent the state of our awareness or consciousness at this moment in time.  Of course that can change at any given moment.  A very good friend once said to me, “How do you want to show up in life?”  I’ll rephrase that.  What frequency do you want to surf in?  God gave you free will, and since you ARE God, the choice is yours.

Namaste, Nicole


“Why do Challenges accompanied by Anguish begin, when one is Introduced to the Spiritual side of their Journey?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/11/10 at 1:20pm

Hi, why is it that when one is exposed or introduced to the spiritual side of
this journey generally the challenges begin?  If re-integration with god
(God/Universe) is what people look for within religion , spirituality etc.,  why the

depth of anguish that most go through  when they truly find it, especially in
this age? If spirits after making the transition have the same issues, what is to
be done on this side of the veil?


Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hi Corry,

You’re addressing a number of issues here. I have observed that by the time we recognize that we’re in a Spiritual ‘growth spurt’, we’re already working our way out of a quagmire, one of our own design if you consider that we wrote the Spriitual ‘Blue Print’ for our experiences for this earthly incarnation. Without the challenges to overcome, there is no growth, no expansion of awareness.  As for the ‘anguish’, the truth can hurt. We tend to recognize when others around us are in transition, however when holding the mirror up to our ‘self’, it  can be difficult to look into our own eyes without turning away. I like the Quote by Leslie Fieger, “Any fool can run towards the light. It takes a master with courage to turn and face the darkness and shine his own light there.” Depending on your beliefs around Reincarnation, you can either choose to work through an issue this time around, or repeat it the next time. Either way, the less ‘baggage’ you have upon your departure, the easier the crossing.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller


What’s your experience of God then?

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Artwork 'Love's Light' by Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Take a deer in the head lights, cross it with a chipmunk on caffeine and you might get a visual of Monica doing her first Radio Interview.  I only got to witness the first 45 seconds as she ‘prepped’ herself as though cramming for a tenth grade algebra test because she kicked me out. (hmmm, wonder why?)

So we are celebrating the fact that she’s no longer a radio virgin to be sacrificed to the media gods as David Schrader of Darkness Radio was her first and for the most part, gentle interview.  Of course one listener phoned in the question, “So what’s your experience of God then?” Whoa!  No pressure tip toeing between being honest while in typical Canadian fashion not wanting to offend anyone.  I’m not going to tell you how that went down you’ll just have to download the Darkness Radio pod cast if you wanna hear how she side stepped that mine field.

It does beg the question to all of us though.  “What’s YOUR experience of Creator then?”

I mean have you had a direct experience or are you going on the say so of others?  Not trying to be an asshole here (just asking).  I suppose we’re gonna ruffle a few feathers with our answers especially if it runs contrary to everything you know, or everything you’ve been taught.  It’s scary to navigate without a compass but scarier still to go on blind faith.  I’ve always felt that believing something and knowing something are two very different things.  I mean you may have read about orgasms, heard about orgasms, but until you have an orgasm….you don’t know squat about orgasms.  Know what I mean?  Monica’s been in the presence of ‘Love’s Light’ dozens upon dozens of times as she’s led many to the light over the years.  I have only experienced source energy like that once, but once is all it takes to let you know there is something real and tangible out there and it’s experiential not something you can get from a book, not even ours.

Namaste, Nicole


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