The Purpose of Dark Energies

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'A question that has come up a number of times needs to be addressed so I will take a poke at it…..What is the purpose of Dark Energy? Why can’t we live in Mr. Roger’s neighborhood all the time or put another way, Why can’t we all just get along?

An overused metaphor but it works.   There is no Light without Dark. We need the contrast to tell the difference.  In life we are energetic light beings walking around in a body having a human experience, and who we are is reflected back to us via those around us.  What I mean by that is how we respond to events placed in our path tells us more of who we are, and furthermore gives us the opportunity to rise to the level of love, and test our beliefs in a very concrete way.  How many heroes arise from the ugliness brought on by tyrants?  Yes, even ‘dark energy’ in the form of another human being allows us to measure ourselves by our core truths and convictions.  Thus, the question of positive and negative polarities themselves come into question.  What is one without the other? Now I’ve answered the question as though the dark energies were externalized, however, there is a dark side that exists within each one of us. The human experience has a wide range of emotions.  Energy is neither good nor bad but thinking makes it so.  What you decide to do with it is a matter of free will, and free will again, will define you. So my answer in short is that dark energy serves a purpose in order to offer you an opportunity to exercise your free will, and thus define what you choose to be. So let me ask you this, “How do you wanna show up?”  Circumstances don’t define us, they reveal us.

After 2300+ odd past lives I can tell you a) I’m a very slow learner and b) I’ve played every role from the self absorbed-control freak bastard to whatever it is I am now.  I’d like to think I’m inching my way towards love, compassion and enlightenment, but I may have a ways to go.  It may take another 99 lives or perhaps in a burst of inspiration I’ll get a hole in one.  The point is we are all eternal beings who will get there eventually on our own schedule.  If we do the math it’s inevitable.  Eternal = a very long time so time or the constant now is literally on your side.  I digress.  If you think of the ‘dark side’ as being an aspect of yourself that you pass through en route to embodying love, then having been the jerk will certainly allow you an insiders peek to understand and ultimately forgive other jerks as they trundle down their dark path reeking havoc on the rest of us. Namaste. The God in me acknowledges the God in you. We are one.  Takes on a whole new meaning when you think of it this way no?

Namaste, Nicole


If Depression was 87.5 fm on the Dial

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'I haven’t quite figured out yet what specific frequencies belong to what range of emotions.  If 87.5 fm referred to Depression then 108.9 would be Gratitude and so on.  I can’t say that there is an actual frequency assigned to each emotion but ‘empathically speaking’ (ok smarty pants I know that’s not a real word but it’s not what I say, it’s what I mean so give it a rest) there is definitely a different ‘feeling’ that accompanies what I will refer to as ‘the lower range’ of emotions vs. the ‘higher range’ of emotions.

I’m not gonna get into one is better than the other.  Anger isn’t bad.  Nor is joy good.  Those are judgments.  They are merely states of being that is all.  I have noticed that emotions that don’t spring from ‘joy’ are sluggish, slower, denser if I can use these terms to qualify something that is abstract.  I can feel it when I’m around someone swimming in the key of  D-minor for example.  It seems that like a chord in music certain emotional states clump together, so someone who lives in the key of anger may also experience an undercurrent of bitterness, resentment, jealousy.  Likewise someone who lives in a state of gratitude may also swim in compassion, consideration and grace, and this state ‘vibrates’ faster.

I recall waking up beside my partner who ‘lives’ in perpetual gratitude and hearing a high pitch ‘hum’ in my ears as well as feeling ‘bees buzzing’ on my skin.  Since I was half asleep part of my conscious mind said, “What the hell is going on?  That’s way too fast.” And my subconscious self replied, “ Go back to sleep.  That’s just Monica.’

Energy field- unplugged.

Our aura changes as we change. As we accept new ideas, and change our perceptions our emotions change along with them.  We are all on this path spanning from the awareness of being a Tyrant like Attila the Hun inching our way towards Buddha or Christ consciousness, and we will all arrive there in our own time.  That is the beauty of not judging.  “Nothing is good nor bad but thinking makes it so.”

“We are all droplets of water in an endless sea, a forgotten divinity.”

I wrote that lyric line years ago to describe the fact that we are all one.  The sea is indivisible from its drops of water and vice versa.    We are all part of a collective consciousness and that consciousness in turn is joined to bloody everything.

As a kid I always wondered how God could know everything.  Then I found out that Creator IS part of every thing.  Clever, clever place to hide.  So the moral of the story is that emotions are merely frequencies and represent the state of our awareness or consciousness at this moment in time.  Of course that can change at any given moment.  A very good friend once said to me, “How do you want to show up in life?”  I’ll rephrase that.  What frequency do you want to surf in?  God gave you free will, and since you ARE God, the choice is yours.

Namaste, Nicole


A Heart only knows another Heart

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

That’s my credo, because I’m Bi-sexual and that pretty much sums it up for me.

I think that balance between masculine and feminine energies is a natural state of being for humans. The reason I believe this is so is that many of us incarnate as both male AND female many times over. Hence gender is only part of this physical reality. On the other side however, we have no physical body, so this question of “innie” or “outtie” doesn’t matter much there.

Even here on earth, how Sexuality is treated is a matter of what Culture you are born into. I have always found it intriguing that from one society’s rules to the next “nothing was either good nor bad but thinking made it so.” Meaning, what was taboo over here was nothing to break a sweat about over there. Ideas about right and wrong, good and bad, natural or unnatural are based more upon man-made concepts. We’re born into cultures that embrace them, and taught to believe what our culture accepts as correct.

Of course during the course of our lives it is our destiny to come to terms with our authenticity and to challenge antiquated ideologies that no longer serve our truths, otherwise women still wouldn’t have the vote and President Obama wouldn’t be in office.

Getting back to ‘Energy’ I find a state of ‘balance in all things’ to be a healthy state of being. Extremes to an Empath are, well, extremely uncomfortable. Now I’m not saying that everyone who is straight or gay is in denial ’cause this conversation isn’t really even about sex. It’s about what or whom we are attracted to, and if you take the body out of the equation… aren’t you just falling in love with a person?

Namaste, Nicole


You’re an Empath…I’m a What?

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Empathy is a word that most of us can relate to.  Did I really just say that?  Bad joke.  Sorry, I should be taken out back and flogged with a wet noodle.

Bad, bad Nikki.

To empathize is a verb, but the first time I ever heard it used as a noun is a day I will never forget.  I was sitting across from an acquaintance who, among other things, did Psychometry. That fascinates me. To do psychometry, I think you have to be part Astral Projector and part blood hound to pick up that energy scent. She assisted the police in solving their cases by touching an object and getting a glimpse of information, hopefully about the whereabouts of the owner.  Naturally all of this was hush hush. After all, “What would people say if they knew the police used a psychic?”

Now Elaine had other gifts as well.  She could see a person’s Aura and tell you a little bit about yourself.  That day I had come for a reading that focused on my current life theme for this incarnation and she took me by surprise, by relaying her experience following me around at my last house party.  She told me that as hostess of said soiree I would greet each new guest and my aura would change. Wot?

Let’s say Tom’s aura was pink with purple polka dots. (not really, but you get the idea) Mine became pink with purple polka dots.  And Nancy?  Well, Nancy had zebra stripes so mine became zebra stripes. In short, my aura changed with each new person I met.  Weird, eh?  Not for an Empath.  Apparently, for us it’s normal. It’s what we do.  I then received notice from Elaine on what my childhood must have looked like.  Whoa!  Spot on.  How did I know it was unusual to hang out with every social group in high school from the jocks to the metal heads to the brainiacs to the punk rockers?   I was in with everyone.  I’m told that’s unusual.

So let’s review.  Every person on the planet has an aura.  Lots of neat information is stored there.  Stuff like your bodies’ health issues, past life information, unfinished karmic stuff attached to this life, and of course, emotions.  Deep seated emotions.  Even the stuff you’ve combed over with a rake and shovel and thought you had buried. or worse yet – lied to yourself about while playing the denial game, or maybe they ride close to the surface.  At any rate Empaths feel them, to the point it can be hard distinguishing somebody else’s’ stuff from their own, and as a child you can bet that screwed me up.

It also allowed me to see past the false bravado and bullshit that most people put up -or try to put out there as the ‘face’ they wish to show the world.  Got my ass kicked plenty knowing stuff I shouldn’t have said out loud. Some people didn’t like that. Ah well. On the flip side it also enabled me to feel what was authentic and relate to my peers on a whole other level.

I’ve come to see people in some ways as being divided against themselves.  They seem unaware that there is the personality or the emotions that people have –not unlike wearing articles of clothing on the body.  Underneath all that however is the ageless self.  That’s the part of us that comes along for the ride as the observer, watching without judgment all the soap operas and drama that the personality drums up.   None of it is real, but in our minds we create the story and then we create the emotions generated from it.  It’s all about point of view. All of it is real, and none of it is real.  I mean if I go through life with yellow sunglasses, guess what?  I color my perceptions in a swath of yellow, thus justifying my world view.  So, what color sunglasses are you wearing?

In summary (yes we are nearing the end so you can refresh your tea):

Empaths feel everything. We feel the full spectrum of human emotion right down to the key of G.  We feel you and it is how ‘I’ in large part experience my reality.  I tune into whatever, whoever is around me and vibrate on that bat channel for awhile to get their flavour. Of course I do have my own frequency on the radio dial and I park it there once in awhile.  The fact that we are all one makes it possible to do so, and at some later date when I’ve had enough wine and feel up to it, I’ll share what it’s like to have a visit with the dearly departed after they’ve shed their personality and their real self is revealed.

You, I, WE are beautiful baby. (just in case no one’s told you lately)

Namaste, Nicole


When the Gift isn’t.

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'I don’t want to sound like I am bitching, moaning, or otherwise kvetching…but I really need to lay down a foundation of honesty here.   Some people think it would be wild to be Monica, to have the ‘quote-unquote’ gifts she has, and I really want to be open to those toying with the notion to be careful what you wish for.  It’s not all fun and games.

Sure it’s cool to go gallivanting around the universe; to astral travel through time and space. Who wouldn’t like to explore or play with consciousness? It’s especially exciting if you can forget your human structure and allow your imagination to take you where it will.

But then there’s the bad stuff.

The stuff we try not to sensationalize or put a big ol’ strobe light on, nonetheless, it exists.  There are times when she is called upon to be a witness.  She can’t intercede or stop a harrowing murder, all she can do is be there for the person before, during and after they cross over, and all without condemning or even judging the murderer.

Could you do that?

I couldn’t.  I’m simply not evolved enough for that.  Sometimes she experiences the death along with them-the physical sensations, the thoughts in their heads, their life long memories.

Could you do that?

I couldn’t. I’m simply not strong enough for that. Sometimes she watches children die, and she has to accept that it was meant to go down this way, for a greater good that only our higher selves knows or understands.

Could you do that?

I couldn’t, and keep my sanity anyway.  Monica admitted that she tinkered on the brink before coming to terms with what was required of her so I say this with the utmost of compassion. Be careful what you wish for.  It’s not all a joy ride out there in the slipstream of consciousness.

But then again, sometimes, it is.

Namaste, Nicole


What’s your experience of God then?

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Artwork 'Love's Light' by Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Take a deer in the head lights, cross it with a chipmunk on caffeine and you might get a visual of Monica doing her first Radio Interview.  I only got to witness the first 45 seconds as she ‘prepped’ herself as though cramming for a tenth grade algebra test because she kicked me out. (hmmm, wonder why?)

So we are celebrating the fact that she’s no longer a radio virgin to be sacrificed to the media gods as David Schrader of Darkness Radio was her first and for the most part, gentle interview.  Of course one listener phoned in the question, “So what’s your experience of God then?” Whoa!  No pressure tip toeing between being honest while in typical Canadian fashion not wanting to offend anyone.  I’m not going to tell you how that went down you’ll just have to download the Darkness Radio pod cast if you wanna hear how she side stepped that mine field.

It does beg the question to all of us though.  “What’s YOUR experience of Creator then?”

I mean have you had a direct experience or are you going on the say so of others?  Not trying to be an asshole here (just asking).  I suppose we’re gonna ruffle a few feathers with our answers especially if it runs contrary to everything you know, or everything you’ve been taught.  It’s scary to navigate without a compass but scarier still to go on blind faith.  I’ve always felt that believing something and knowing something are two very different things.  I mean you may have read about orgasms, heard about orgasms, but until you have an orgasm….you don’t know squat about orgasms.  Know what I mean?  Monica’s been in the presence of ‘Love’s Light’ dozens upon dozens of times as she’s led many to the light over the years.  I have only experienced source energy like that once, but once is all it takes to let you know there is something real and tangible out there and it’s experiential not something you can get from a book, not even ours.

Namaste, Nicole


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