“Are there Dangers to OBE’s?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/06/12 at 12:43 am

Hey Monica,

Love your web site.

I have found all kinds of wonderful info on how to have an OBE (Out of Body Experience).

However, now that I have the info and am ready  to try it, I’m wondering about any dangers that may be waiting just outside my physical body. I’ve never even attempted this before and know nothing outside of what I’ve read online.

Any helpful hints you have would be greatly appreciated.

Barbara

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Barbara,

If you haven’t already read these, I’d like to recommend two books. One is Toltec Dreaming: Don Juan’s Teachings on the Energy Body by Ken Eagle Feather. The author goes into great detail of the various states of dreaming, including “creating a conscious dreaming body, often referred to as an out-of-body experience.”

The second is  Astral Dynamics: A New Approach to Out-Of-Body Experiences by Robert Bruce. The author goes into detail about the various astral states and planned out of body experiences, including bi-location.

Both books offer suggested do’s and don’ts for Astral Travel.

I can offer a few suggestions for Psychic Protection  from my own experiences:

Learn to Ground yourself before embarking on any astral journey.

Protect yourself via positive intention and mantras. You can set boundaries by giving yourself cues to ‘come back safely’ if you find yourself in an uncomfortable experience.

Know that there is a connection between your physical body, and your astral body. This is referred to as a ‘Silver Cord’ that connects the two. Think of it as a safety bungee cord. Just being aware of its existence, may ease your trepidation about astral travel.

It’s important to be in a positive state of being, stress free, to allow the experience to unfold into a pleasurable one. Fear and stress will only hinder and challenge any experience. If you subconsciously tell yourself there may be dangers, you’ve already created that layer of resistance. If this is the case, you may not be ready for the experience.

It’s tough, however letting go of any preconceived ideas is helpful. Do your best not to project any expectations, and allow the journey to proceed without judgment. I’ve found as soon as you stop being simply the observer of things, the experience tends to slide sideways into unpredictable nonsense before grinding to a sudden halt.

Don’t be hard on yourself, as in disappointment if nothing happens. Let it go, and try a nightly routine of intention before sleep time. It may be months before anything occurs, or it may be that very first time…do your best to simply allow what is.

If you hear or see a cue that it’s time to return to your body, act on it. I’ve often heard a voice telling my ‘it’s time to go back now’, as if from an ethereal guardian. Its comforting to know they exist. I’ve noticed the longer I do stay ‘away’, the rougher the re-entry can be…lol. Don’t be alarmed, it sometimes feels like a bumpy return landing on an airport runway!

You may want to keep a Dream Journal by your bedside, to jot down initial impressions as you return.

I hope this helps, and may all your astral journeys be joyful and rewarding.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

 


“How can I Open up to the Gifts I Strongly Feel are Within Me?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/04/18/ at 5:25 pm

Since I was a child, I have experienced “strange” events, ranging from contact with non-human entities to psychic connections leading to learning to read Tarot to talking with dead people and helping people to die.

I feel, however, that I have been very bottled up and that what I have experienced is the smallest amount that has been able to get through. I often feel as though an iron door slams shut whenever I begin to open up. Have you any suggestions that can help me open up to what I strongly feel is really within me?

Thank you, and I love your book!

Samantha

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hi Samantha,

I’m glad you like the Fringe Dweller book!

Now in answer to your query, I can say this, because I’ve done it myself. Sometimes the wanting and willingness impedes the allowing of gifts to emerge.

I found myself feeling frustrated whenever I heard Wayne Dyer say “Let go, and let God”. However once I started working with my mentor Carolyn Long, I realized the wisdom in such phrases, because as I let go of the desire for results, things began to unfold naturally.

In the post ‘I’ve had Light for Healing…’ I mention “Many times there are so many circles ‘of life stuff’ that are constantly spinning, there’s no ‘break’ in the cycle for anything new to take hold.”

That said, I also recognize the opposite. There is truth in the phrase “God/Creator/The Universe only gives  you what you are able to handle”.

These are two example of what you may be dealing with. You’ll have to reflect within yourself what resonates truthfully.

I’ve gone into detail in posts such as “Why is Psychic Work such a Roller Coaster Ride”, describing the slow periods vs the chaos of activity. In “Am I Opening a Door I’m not Ready for” I talk about grounding, and protection so that you have tools to assist you in not feeling overwhelmed by strange activity that may flood through the gates.

I’ve spoken about my experience with ‘the art of allowing’. It may sound simple, however when in the moment, thinking without drawing conclusions, that can roll into judgment, and potentially result in not meeting the expectations you drew from your conclusions of how the experience should unfold  … can very much impede the natural flow and unfolding of the experience itself. I understand that might sound strange, however as I said, it has been my experience that during every moment of an experience, the more I simply observe, the broader the experience becomes.

The most beautiful explanation I’ve come across so far is from  The Lazy Man’s Guide to Enlightenment by Tahddeus Golas:

“Music teaches us how to maintain pleasure and ecstasy. Normally we tend to think of a moment of euphoric realization as unbearable and impossible to continue. It slips away and then we pursue it again. It does so because we are unwilling to let it go, but if we take the example of music, letting go of one note to hear the next, then our pleasure can be constant through the vibrations change.”

I hope this helps, and may you have wonderful positive experiences unfold!

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

 


“Why is Psychic work such a Roller Coaster ride?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/01/28 at 7:43 pm

Q: Why is there such highs and lows in this ‘psychic work’?
There are times that info comes streaming in then nothing at all?
Any advice is appreciated.

Thank you! I totally enjoyed the read!! Awesome indeed!

Noelle

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Noelle,

Oh can I relate to that Spiritual roller coaster! I’m sure many others out there can too.
Simply put, we get as much as we can handle.

I think one’s current ‘head space’, and emotional state are a big factor, as well as what I consider to be ‘spiritual growth spurts’. If I was exposed to everything I’ve experienced over the last 4 decades in one overnight ‘cram’ session, I’m sure I’d be a little scorch mark on the ground. I’ve discovered for myself, that after an intense workshop, or lecture, I need some ‘down time’, to let all the information sink in and gel a little bit.  After too many days of intense learning, I find myself touching that state of hyper sensitivity that can lead to a state of hyper vigilance. I love a good coffee, however 12 espressos in one sitting isn’t necessarily a ‘good’ thing.

I ’ve certainly noticed a change within myself growing up. As a teen, I was immersed in a quagmire of emotion (weren’t we all?!). I found myself in a constant state of hyper vigilance where the psychic energy surrounding me was frenetic and overwhelming. There was also a fair amount of Dark Energies making their presence known because I wasn’t informed, and didn’t have any tools in the tool box yet for Psychic Protection.

Daily Meditation and Grounding certainly helps balance our state of mind. This enables an open minded approach to new things, as well as coping skills for overwhelming experiences. It’s beneficial to have a non judgmental perspective when taking in a lot of information at once.

I think what goes hand in hand with all this, is the concept that we can’t necessarily force or induce an experience. What’s important is the art of allowing an experience to unfold naturally in the moment, and to be present with it. This is what I would consider a natural pace through stages of spiritual growth.

It certainly is exciting when we experience and learn new things. However we can’t ‘live’ there all the time. There’s a reason for the expression ‘burning the candle at both ends’, it applies here too.

Do your best not to beat yourself up over the seemingly ‘slow’ periods, and perhaps embrace a state of gratitude with each new experience. It’s usually not until we look back and reflect upon things, that we can see how far we’ve come.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

 


What is a Psychic Imprint?

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Luckily I’d heard of such things, because when I experienced such a thing, it had the subtlety of a space ship landing on your house.  If you ever run across a Psychic Imprint there will be no doubt of it even if it’s your first time.

It was early on at the turn of this new century as I went for a stroll with a dear friend of  mine who calls himself ‘the Wise Wizard’.  Peter and I used to enjoy going for a stretch along Jericho beach in Vancouver, Canada to ground ourselves and catch up on each others lives.  He was always a great sounding board, and the first to chuckle at one of my few fears in life, dying in a fire or by drowning.  He was quick to share that he had a flash of me in former lives and it was little wonder WHY those two haunted me. Don’t get me wrong.  I’m not afraid of death per say, but the ‘how to’ part might be problematic as I don’t find myself attracted to pain.  Past lives have a way sometimes of leaving an emotional mark in this one and I’d had many an unpleasant ‘end’ as a Witch or Healer or ‘Woman of the Woods’ when it was less than popular to be one.  Thank goodness we don’t stone Naturopaths or Herbalists in this day and age.

N’way, we were strolling along taking in the sun and surf when it felt like a wall of emotion ‘gob smacked’ me in my tracks.  I had the distinct impression of fear, panic, desperation as though I was in peril. I pointed to some shrubbery where a large rock was present and said, ‘There.  That’s where it happened. I felt like I was dragged in there.”

To my utter astonishment my companion answered back in agreement. “I was overwhelmed with the urge to sexually assault you.  To drag you into those bushes”  Even though his comments sounded predatory I wasn’t worried or offended because we were both psychics, and we both understood that what we’d experienced was an example of an imprint, but from two very different points of view.  I had taken in the extreme emotions imprinted on the natural environment from the victim’s stand point while my friend had experienced the echo of the stalker.  Echoes are not the same as your own emotions and having had plenty of run-ins with other people’s feelings I could differentiate like a 5 year old can tell chocolate from strawberry ice cream.  Advantage goes to the Empath.

A psychic imprint then is an echo of an emotion, an emotional memory of an event that occurred by those who experienced it. The natural environment almost acts like a sponge recording and playing back that energy.  I don’t believe it can hurt you although it can shock or frighten the heck out of you if you didn’t know what it is, or when it’s coming.  More than likely you can expect to pick up on places that witnessed great tragedy as obvious sources of unexplained outbursts of emotional energy, however great joy and love can also imprint an area.

To review, any intense emotional charge can have this effect so be forewarned that just going into the bedroom of the average North American teenager may lead to bursts of emotional drama. (grin)  Yes, that was a joke.  For those of you who still have adolescent children at home….good luck with that.

For the rest of us, if you pass by an area and inexplicably find yourself shaken with intense emotions that aren’t your own, there’s a very good chance you just experienced your first psychic imprint. Inhale-Exhale.  Just breathe, and leave. Whatever happened is in the past so say a little prayer such as the protective affirmation “All that is not mine, please leave” with conviction, and go on with your day knowing you caught wind of some echoes wafting through time.

Namaste, Nicole

 


“What system of Self Protection do you initiate from unwanted Intrusion?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/12/21 at 6:12 pm

What system of self protection do you initiate to keep from unwanted intrusion/interference? Do you surround yourself in white light etc…?

Note: Great interview on Dreamland.

Fabulous artwork.

You are so articulate and your joyfulness is delightful.

Barbara

Fringe Dweller

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Dear Barbara,

I talked about basic methods of Psychic Protection in the post “Am I Opening a Door I’m  not ready for?” in answer to a similar question. However here are some additional tools.

A good start, is not inviting any Dark Energies ‘in for tea’. When meditating, or intent with prayer, only invite and ask for those of ‘The Light’. Nicole wrote in more detail about Dark Energies and ‘ways to send them packing’ in her Coming Out of the Psychic Closet blog post “A Word on Ouija Boards”.

There are methods of protecting or ‘Smudging’ your home against unwanted or lingering intrusions. Smudging, is a ritual purification by smoke using herbs thought to purify. Many people smudge their home before social gatherings to infuse the space with good energy, and afterward to rid it of any unwanted ones. Energies can cling on to objects as well. I smudge articles I’ve purchased as soon as I bring them home, especially antiques or used items. Everything has an energetic history.

As for personal protection, it’s always a good practice to Ground Yourself. There are a multitude of ways to envision this. It’s a matter of personal preference, and finding a way that works for you. One method if you are standing, is to envision tree roots from your feet and toes embedding themselves deeply into the earth, while silver strands of light extend from your head into the sky above. Other methods involve imagining yourself laying down, with tree roots extending from each of your Chakras to the earth beneath you, while strands of light extend from each of your Chakras to the sky above you. This is a wonderful method to start and end your day with as you lay down in bed.

Thank you for your kind words, and I hope these methods of protection are helpful.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller

 


A Word on Ouija Boards

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Photo of a Ouija Board for a paranormal article by 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift' co-author Nicole ChaykaA word to the wise on Ouijas or ‘Talking Boards’ as they have been called for centuries. There are two schools of thought on what goes on during a Seance and neither one should be treated as lightly as to call it ‘a game’.    A Ouija, like a pendulum or set of dice is nothing more than an ‘indicator’ that points to yes/no/maybe and or spells out words in order to communicate.  Some believe that it is our own unconscious mind pushing the indicator around giving us the answers to our own questions.  Others think it is messages from the ‘great beyond’.

I think its both.

Similar to Muscle Testing such as that used in Kinesiology whereby we access our subconscious mind testing for allergic reactions, a pendulum or Ouija isn’t so dissimilar in methodology. The body doesn’t lie.  You ask and it tells the unbiased truth.  It can reveal to you what you already know, not what you don’t know.  It does not for example tell you the future.

Then there’s the other stuff.

You might think that Ouija boards are nothing more than a game made up by some toy company to incite the imaginations of kids but they are more, and they can be dangerous.  Actually, it kinda pisses me off that Parker Brothers put these things on the shelves like it was another board game they were selling instead of a Gateway and communication tool for Spirits. Yeah, let’s let a kid going through all the regular teenage stuff play around with that….good idea.  Teenagers are walking soap operas.  Combine all the regular world of adolescent soaps along with a jumble of emotional Telekinetic Energy and you have the making of a cesspool soup.  Negative energetic beings LOVE cesspool soup.  They nosh on it every chance they get.  It’s like mother’s milk to them so when you put a Ouija board into the hands of an unprepared, emotionally immature human caught somewhere between being a child and not quite an adult yet….you might as well open the front door to the spirit world, offer a complete stranger a beer and tell them to take a load off!

So now we’re gonna talk about rules, boundaries and limitations.  Thanks Caesar, it’s not just for dogs.

Poltergeists, or let’s call them assholes for short, enjoy playing with you if you are willing to offer up your ‘attention’ to them to take advantage of.  If you are silly enough to actually take them seriously, follow their advice, or think that they have some special insight because they are from ‘the other side’ they can create havoc and have great fun at your expense.  Teenagers therefore run a great risk of being ‘suckered’ by these assholes who prey upon them and looooove having their attention.  All that lovely teenage angst to manipulate and a willing pair of arms and legs to do their mischief.  What fun!  The best way to send them packing is to simply ignore them. Tell them to go away. Stop playing the game and giving your attention away to them and they’ll grow bored and move on.

It’s the last set of characters that worry me.

Just as in life, there are some dangerous entities who are disincarnate.  They are angry, violent and prey upon those who give them their ear.  Like all dysfunctional relationships they are control freaks, and when you get wise and pull away there is usually a tantrum involved.  Telekinetic energy can be frightening. Having little visits in your dream states when you too are disincarnate….equally frightening. Yes, once they have your attention they will try to isolate you so that they can prey on (and feed on) your negative emotional states. In fact, they hang out in your energetic field (aura) noshing on negativity so if they can induce a state of fear or panic, or depression you have offered yourself up to them via your attention, and your emotional states to be their play thing.  Ever try to break up with a sociopath?  It will be that hard to get rid of them.

I recommend not inviting them in.

Don’t play. You may want to speak to a certain someone but it doesn’t work that way.  You have no control over who is going to show up.  If however you are going do it anyway and not heed my advice then remember that you are creator and your free will is everything. Decree that only those of the light and love may answer your questions via this device.  Smudge the space before and after to cleanse any negative energies from your space.  And if you find yourself with any ‘cling-ons’ who don’t want to let go don’t be afraid to ask for help.  Isolation and keeping stuff to yourself is NOT the way to go.  Invite in the light.  Love and Light, Love and Light, Love and Light.  Sour the damn milk. Never, never, never keep stuff like this to yourself. If you don’t know about smudging seek out a local Shaman through a spiritualist church or organization and ask for help.

Now the fireplace is over there in the corner….place the board there.  They make damn good kindling.

Namaste, Nicole

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“How do I keep myself centered when hearing Ghosts of loved ones?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Submitted on 2009/11/20 at 12:29 am

I have conversations with friends who passed, shortly after they died. It takes me days, sometimes weeks, to decipher their message. I find it very draining, because I can hear their voices and feel their vibes constantly for that short period of time. But once I understand the message and pass it around to loved ones, it gives them great relief. So, I know my experiences have a purpose.

I am wondering if I am only hearing ghosts of loved ones because I am afraid of being in contact with ghosts in general. Do you know of anyone who have developed the ability to be in contact with ghosts, beyond the few loved ones, and if so, could you direct me to some mentor or techniques? If not, do you know of any techniques to keep myself centered when I am being contacted by friends who recently died?

Martine

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Martine

I too feel my experiences have a purpose, and although I originally anticipated to expand my gifts to other areas, I found what worked for me best, was what showed up naturally, and so I was content to ‘be’ with that. However, I have noticed, that as my state of heart, mind and awareness change and grow, so do my gifts. That saying ‘The teacher appears when the student is ready’ I find very fitting. Community bookstores, spiritual and new age churches often post contact info for people or groups dealing with paranormal themes who can help. However do your due diligence to make sure they’re authentic. If you feel you are ready to expand your circle of experience, put that intention ‘out to the universe’, and you may be amazed at what comes back. Say it out loud, but with clarity of what exactly  it is you wish to expand. Here’s where you can protect yourself as you set some boundaries around the ‘how’ or ‘when’ you would like to help. I reference some Psychic Protection techniques in the post ‘Am I opening a Door that I’m not ready for?‘.

Be careful what you ask for, you may find yourself surrounded by an entourage of ghosts/spirits that leave you feeling overwhelmed, and impede your daily life. Have you ever seen the wonderful comedy ‘Ghost Town’?  You may find yourself with a ‘take a number ‘ policy! I’ve heard Sylvia Browne ask that she only be shown the positive experiences, as opposed to the traumatic ones. I found John Edward’s book   One Last Time insightful and humorous regarding dialogues with ghosts. Your very fear  ‘of being in contact with ghosts in general’ as you say, may be creating the boundaries of who contacts you. Fearfulness, or trepidation has it’s own frequency of vibration, and many spirits who have just  crossed over may not have the best communication skills either. Patience is required. If the message they are trying to communicate is not clear to you, clarify that you aren’t understanding, and ask them to try something different. If you choose to  ask for spirit guide assistance in your communication with the ghosts who have contacted you, ask to only work ‘with those of the light’.

Also, VERY IMPORTANT, is the following gem I learned from experience. Sometimes, a message that comes through does not make sense, because it’s not for you to understand. The meaning may be exclusive to the person it is intended, they will understand. The message can literally be lost in the attempt to translate. It’s most often the essence of what’s shown at face value. You can speak to the person the message is meant for, explaining that you don’t get the reference, but perhaps it may mean something to them, and then relay what you saw, heard, or felt.

Experience and flying by the seat of my pants has been my biggest teacher, and not necessarily something I recommend, however sometimes we have to go with what we have at our disposal.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller.

 


“Am I opening a Door that I’m not ready for?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/09/27 at 5:37am

Dear Fringe.

As a kid, I actually believed I saw spirits. When I was told they weren’t real I stopped. When I was teenager, I saw some again. One was an actual ancestor Indian chief, full head dress and all. Then they would only appear at time of emotional crisis, and always they were positive and encouraging. Never a bad thought and always trying to teach me to use talents. And I have had great success in my career. So… I’d decided I wanted to do hospice volunteering. I thought that would be good to give back. But I’m worried. Will I be sensing more spirits. I encountered a few before recently. Non-threatening. But if I do this, am I opening a door that I am not ready for?

‘Wish to remain Anonymous’

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Dear ‘Wish to remain Anonymous’.

This happens all too often…as kids we don’t question things…we have no inhibitions…it’s the behavioral conditioning that we’re brought up with, and surrounded by that starts to mold us with new beliefs. Even our culture, or the religion we’re brought up in has influences. I’m guessing that if I were to ask you, at the time you saw these spirits, in your heart you knew them to be real? As I said, I’m merely guessing this. It’s something to reflect upon and ponder yourself how you felt.

My Spirit Guides too, come in low points of my life, and they have been of the deepest understanding, with a love so unconditional that’s astounding in its intensity…I find  words don’t properly reflect what I feel.

I think you are blessed to have these communications….what a gift your are receiving !

It sounds like you have a good heart…an open heart…which means yes you’re more likely to be sensitive to anything around you. You’re most likely Empathic as well. I ’d say you’re chances are pretty good to sensing more Spirits if you allow yourself to be open to that experience.

I feel you asked the right question about potentially opening a door that you may not be ready for.  I don’t know your knowledge of these experiences, but you would do well to learn more about Psychic Protection. Now I’m not plugging my book here when I say I go into steps to protect yourself, but to repeat all here would take too long, and if I simply cut and pasted my publisher would have a copyright fit…lol…..(hey, we need to keep our humor).

The simplest and quickest way to protect yourself when you feel unwanted energy, is to mentally surround yourself in white light…come up with a visualization that works for you. Have that bubble of white light extend out to your personal space as far as what feels comfortable for you. Some people envision a cascade of white honey running down the top of their head to their toes…whatever works for you.

Now, most importantly…send love…mentally send love, extend love outwards…and repeat in your head or out loud as often as you need to…ALL THAT IS NOT MINE, PLEASE LEAVE’.

You can even envision a Mirrored Box around you (I actually did a painting of this for chapter 4 of the book , called ‘The Greys’. You can view the painting THE GREYS on the website). It’s a two way mirror. You can see out, however those outside of your mirrored box, only see reflected back what they project onto you. It comes back to them, it doesn’t pass through your mirrors…only Love can penetrate in…and Love is what is sent out to them.

I’d like to recommend an incredible book that I feel could help immensely. It’s called The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom, A Toltec Wisdom Book by Don Miguel Ruiz…it’s a Toltec Wisdom book which fits nicely with your First Nation Spirit Guides. It was a huge help to me, it really enabled me to work with people…all people, those living and even those not.

I hope this helped.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

 


The Greys: artwork from Chapter Four

acrylic on canvas = 5.5’h x 7’w

Artwork 'The Greys' by Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

THE GREYS

Dream Journal entry:

Wednesday, January 14 2003

It was not so bad at first when it was like the crunching of dry autumn leaves underfoot. But still, a small chill ran up my spine and down the backs of my legs like a breeze from the long shadows of approaching winter. A warning of the cold.

The sound grew then, as I listened. What is that? I thought. Is that leaves? No, not leaves. It was too persistent, too relentless. It was something in the walls, something wanting to come out. It was more of a scuttling. Like a swarm of a thousand insects, coming out of the walls, perhaps, coming from nowhere and everywhere. Images flitted through my mind—the dust bowl, the trembling farmer, Egypt, locusts with mandibles clicking in voracious appetite.

The hairs all down the back of my neck stood on end. I felt a nameless dread. Then I saw them—the source of my growing fear. Grey figures— looming, needy, hungry, always wanting. They were huddling together, bound to each other by their dark energies, by the heaviness of their woe. They clothed themselves in it, this woe, gathering it around themselves for whatever ragged warmth it might provide. But of course there was no warmth. There was only poverty, cold, rejection and aching, desperate hunger.

As one they surged towards me, wanting. Wanting what? Nothing, everything. Just wanting, empty, filled with lack. Huge with lack.

All of a sudden, I felt tiny—a small light in the oppressive despair that moved toward me. If that darkness reached me, I would be lost. I would be consumed, left nothing but a stalk stripped of its grain.

My mind hurried to build the box of mirrors that would protect me. Above, below, forward and back, the reflective surfaces began to take shape, but it was too late. Already I could feel the dark energy starting to suck me under.

“Ooooh, #%&*!!!” I thought, “get me outta here!” And with that I was gone.

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