Fringe Dweller: an afterlife paramedic

Submitted on 2009/12/18 at 4:35 pm

Dear Monica:

I have had so many experiences that I do not fully understand but one that is pertinent to you is as follows:

I was taken up to the sky somewhere into a cave like structure or enclosure. I was hovering above the whole scene where I saw myself, in the center of the room lying on a bed made of stone or stones about three feet tall with several beings around me bending over me apparently working on me… with a strong and intense sense of urgency. I am fully aware of what they are doing to me and I know without a doubt they are trying to restore something in me that I had lost or killed off or something.

Then someone – a real person – entered the cave like dwelling and asked what was going on…, the answer came from no one in particular that this group was trying to restore me because I had been so negative for a period of time that my whole energy system was off and not working right.  This real person joined in with the other beings and began working on me with them. I do not remember what happened after that but I do remember the message loud and clear about being negative…

This felt so real to me Monica. What do you think happened to me?

What had I lost that they were restoring?  Or what was it I killed by being negative?
Any input from you would be so greatly appreciated.

Thank you in advance,

Sandra

Hello Sandra,

It appears you’ve received a gift in the form of insight from your Higher Self.  There are many people who don’t remember their dream experiences. It felt so real to you …because it was. To remember in such depth  gives you a new awareness of something, that you now have the power to change. Only you truly know what the negative factor in your recent past might be. You are now in a position to become the ‘Observer of yourself’. I want to clarify here that I’m not talking about judgment, simply observing the words and actions occupying your life. Once you identify them, you can change them for the positive. Many times we are so taken up with our daily ‘stuff’, that we ignore the early signals that we’re on a path of self destruction. Eventually, these ‘symptoms’ of dis-ease will become evident in our body as disease. Both Dr. Wayne Dyer and Deepak Chopra go into great lengths of how ‘negativity’ can affect us. A wonderful book I’ve recommended often is ‘The Four Agreements’ by Don Miguel Ruiz who goes into detail about how we tend to perceive things, and how we can change that. Thought is energy. We need to observe our beliefs, the thoughts and daydreams that are prayers answered by Source without judgment. These litanies shape our experience. So take care and be aware of what you think.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller

Submitted on 2009/11/04 at 4:49pm

Hi,

I just wanted to say that I have had similar experiences in my life.  I have always known that I do not sleep at night and travel and do jobs elsewhere.  In the 1970s, while I was “sleeping”, I worked with Light Beings who rescued earthbound people and took them to the Light. I discontinued doing it because in this life I was to be a teacher and I needed to concentrate all my energy in that area.

Since then, I have used incorporation counseling method to do the same work while in trance.  It is not as effective method to help earthbound souls, but it helps.  I have seen so called “dead” people all my life, and like you, I learned at a very early age to keep it quiet.  I also see auras around people and on a few occasions, have given  readings for friends, but usually it wasn’t a good idea.  I was correct in what I saw and said, but I usually lost a friend over it “because it was too weird”, so I quit doing it.

I got no encouragement from my mother to be the “real” me; usually she accused me of lying.  When I was in my 50’s and she was living with me, she admitted she knew what was going on with me because her mother had been clairvoyant.  She said she didn’t want me to be like her mother, because it had caused a lot of friction in her family when growing up.  I could have enjoyed an ally as a child.  I thought there was something very wrong with me, that’s why I hid it. When I was 34 years old I met some people like me.  It made life so much nicer.

I can really relate to your experiences recorded in your book.  Thank you for writing it.  It is so nice to find a “kindred soul.”

Carolyn Poppen

Dear Carolyn

I understand when you say you needed to concentrate all your energy to what you were doing in this life as a teacher. It’s utterly exhausting to continually ‘work overtime’. I found saying an affirmation before sleeping such as ‘I will get all the rest I need tonight’ really helps. In my case when I was over exhausted my guides would stand ‘guard’ at my bedroom door, redirecting those in need to other ‘Fringe Dwellers’ out there. We are not alone, and we can ask for what we need, a wonderful concept I didn’t discover until a few years ago myself!

Despite our feelings of isolation while growing up, perhaps we can now take consolation by making a difference for others. I feel communication and support without judgment is necessary for people to feel ‘safe’ enough to open up and share their experiences. I understand when you say ‘It made life so much nicer’ when you met others like you. To live one’s life in complete authenticity is very liberating, empowering, and loving.

I’m in a state of gratitude when I hear that this book has brought comfort to someone. Thank you for writing and sharing your experiences.  It was my very isolation growing up that sparked the need to share mine with the Fringe Dweller book.

So to other Fringe Dwellers out there I say… ‘Embrace you Freakdom!’, and as my friend Lynn repeatedly would say, ‘Don’t be afraid to be who you are.’

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

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THANK YOU

Dream Journal entry:

Thursday, April 30 2004

I lie on my bed, exhausted. I’m asking, “What’s next, what’s next?” in a habitual litany. I have been asking that question for the past four months as I saw my friend Lynn through her last days before she died of cancer. I have been working for those months through the nights, led and taught by the light beings who came to help me in the energy healing, and through the days to see to her physical needs. And now that it is over, the question echoes as if I have not quite let her go, as if there is something more that needs to be done.

I realize what it is. I have forgotten to thank all of those who came to help and teach me—the beings that exist on another plane, in another dimension, and bring their tireless and infinite love to the energy work. They had come to me in dreams with diagrams and charts, showing me where to lay my hands, how to direct and apply my energy. They had come with suggestions for diet and homeopathic remedies. They had given me love and guidance and support throughout every minute of the emotionally intense journey that I had been on with Lynn.

I am filled with gratitude, brimming with thanks for all that I remember of those days and nights. Suddenly, the room begins to fill with spirits—beings of light—pouring their love into me and into the air around me. There seem to be hundreds of them.

For a moment doubt makes me ask, “Is this really happening? Can this happen in waking hours?” My doubt is put to rest by the evidence of my own eyes, which see how the light emanates from their hearts, and see the infinite compassion shining on their faces. They float above the ground, swaying gently as seaweed does in the ocean’s tide. Whatever doubt I have is absorbed and set aside by the physical joy I feel in every cell of my body as gentleness and love lift me out of time and into the worlds beyond—the soul’s home.

As one, they raise their right arms and wave as if to say, “It’s all right that you forgot us. And you’re welcome” in a gesture of infinite generosity.

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THE HEALING

Dream Journal entry:

Friday, November 1 2002

This is the first time I knowingly work with a team of energy healers.

I have been astrally ‘dropped’ into a something already in progress and I am not sure for a moment where I am or what is happening. As I try to orient myself, I notice a young man asleep and floating horizontally above a bed. We are not alone for long. Seven figures gather around him. They are intent, filled with purpose.

These figures are ethereal light beings. A brilliant glow emanates from their heart center and they glow. Even though I perceive them as light, I can vaguely see that they wear robes that fall to their feet as they float in the matrix.

We are surrounded by darkness. I have no sense of geometric boundary. There is no top or bottom, no constraining side walls in the space of our healing.

None of the figures speak to each other or touch as they line up on either side of the patient, four on his right side and three on his left. I move into the space remaining, bringing our number to eight.

I know what is going on and what to do. I’ve done this before. We have assembled here to heal this young man. There is no communication or instruction; we all know our parts. Together we proceed to work in a seamless choreography to cleanse, rid, eradicate, release and clear his physical body of disease. Our efforts are utterly synchronized in the knowing that only together is it possible for us to draw the diseased energy out.

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