“I Go to War In My Dreams”

Coast to Coast Radio aftershow paranormal question for Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Coast to Coast Radio with host Ian Punnet in a paranormal discussion with psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/07/11 at 10:37 am

“War”

Just about every night, I go to war in my dreams. I’m constantly locked in combat with entities night after night. Just last night, I got in a fight with a thing that had the head of a cougar and a human skeleton body. I ended up throwing him out the windowof a skyscraper.

But, these dreams don’t bother me. I look forward to going to bed. It’s really no big deal.

Vincent

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Vincent,

I don’t know enough about your circumstances, however I’ll offer the suggestions I can.

Many dreams we have are emotionally based, where we work out our ‘stuff’ from the day’s events. However it’s up to us to learn how to recognize and differentiate what is emotional, and what is ‘something else’. I’ve been experiencing things for so long, I can differentiate in the same way I can tell the difference between Chocolate and Vanilla ice cream.

Many people who have been warriors in previous lives, may continue doing ‘battle’ in the ‘sandbox’ of their dream state. When we are in our ethereal bodies, we can interact with spirit. I’ve been to schools on the other side, both as a student, and as a teacher.

There may be some influences from your waking reality that may carry over into your dream world. I find this helps me identify with the meanings of something without needing the narration of explanation of what’s going on. If you’ve ever seen the TV show Medium ,  the main character Alison Dubois, she sees her prophetic dreams involving bits that she is both familiar with , and those that she isn’t. It’s up to her, to decipher and discern what’s really going on.

My experiences are similar to those depicted in the show. For example, I’m a TV show and movie and comic book geek, so If I see George Clooney in my dreams trying to help someone, I know it’s in reference to Doctor because of a role I identify him with. This is how it works for me , I’ve learned by repetition what all the movie characters and comic book characters mean in my dreams. I take the flavor and the nuances to fill in the blanks of what’s going on. You might take a second look at your dreams from this perspective, to see if any of it fits for you, it may not.

It’s been said that the moles, or birthmarks we have visible on our bodies, is a sign of ‘wounds’ or injury during battles from previous lives. Many people remember doing battle in previous lives.

I myself, since a child always carried my backpack in my left hand, never switching it to my right, no matter how heavy it was. When teased in grade school about the quirk, and why I never switched over to my right to give my left arm a break, I answered without skipping a beat, and having no idea at the time where it came from- ‘That’s my shield arm, I need to keep my right free to hold a sword’. Yes….curious indeed…lol, yet there it was.

Now if you’re doing battle with Dark Energies of some sort, you must be doing all right! It looks like you have the ability to replace your fear with another emotion, thereby the dark energies can’t feed and grow from any fear off you. You also look forward to going to bed, it’s almost like a giant playground you get to go to, so it sounds like you’re doing just fine. I myself love ethereal paint ball, with glowing balls of colored energy emitting from my hands like Spiderman shooting his web. Well, that’s just me…lol.

Enjoy your time in the giant sandbox in your Dream World, and perhaps just set your intention upon going to bed for a safe journey, and put out some protection for yourself that no harm will come to you there.

Thank you for sharing your experience, and I hope this was helpful.

Namaste, Monica

 


Shadow Figures aka ‘Dweller on the Threshold’

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Submitted on 2010/10/29 at 10:35 pm

Hello,

Monica I have been trying to understand my son’s experiences about things he sees, like shadow figures with red glowing eyes or people standing by his bed.

He hears voices, some not to good and others he doesn’t understand. He used to dream of traveling to weird dark places to get a person out, but sometimes he travels to beautiful places, where it seems to relax him.

He’s very intuitive and able to say things that tend to happen later now. I think he has a special gift but he is still too afraid to face his experiences. Is there a message for him for his Guides on how he can better deal with this?

I had bought your book Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift for him to read so he can understand why he was going through this. By the way, I really enjoy your book. It has helped me by confirming on what I believe in my life.

Thank you, your friend.

Rebecca

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Rebecca,

In my early childhood, I started out with similar experiences “like Shadow Figures with Red Glowing Eyes”.

I don’t know how old your son is, however I will offer the following.

Like attracts like. The emotional environment your son has towards any Astral/OBE experience beforehand, will have direct influence on the experience itself. Fear of the unknown will intensify, cycle and grow. His imagination has the potential to get the better of him. This is common to those new to these type of experiences.

There is a name associated with this type of experience, it’s called ‘Dweller on the Threshold’ by author Robert Bruce.  His book   Astral Dynamics: A New Approach to Out-Of-Body Experiences is a wealth of information on the Scientific/psychology of astral experiences. I resonate with much of what he describes, as it mirrors many of my experiences.

Here is the typical scenario, for Astral traveling ‘newbies’. A shadowy, menacing humanoid shape, usually all featureless black with burning red eyes. Mine was large, grey, and distinctly furry, but also with burning red eyes. For some people, it may remain motionless, or it may take steps forward and make threatening gestures. In some cases it will be silent, or breathe heavily and loudly. It may snarl, giggle, laugh, call you by name or even threaten you with doom and gloom.

Robert attests that this type of ‘Dweller Monster’ never attacks or harms an Astral Projector. I know for myself (as a child during these experiences), that if I let my fear get the better of me, so did my personal ‘Monster’. Once I confronted and ordered him away, he disappeared.

Now, in my current experiences, I know and understand how vital it is to be a calm, and dispassionate observer of events. I liken it to the movie The Matrix, and the character Neo. As long as you are in control of your emotional awareness, you have the ability to be in the emotional control of your astral experiences. Again, like attracts like.

The more positive experiences your son has, the less levels of fear he will have and associate.

Again, I don’t know how old your son is. I highly encourage an open line of communication. I remember the best solace I had at an early age, was hearing the words ‘I believe you, and I support you’ from my closest high school friend. I then felt open to speak freely in a safe and supportive environment. I remembered how isolated I had felt, and now do my best to remain open and approachable to my own son, who is coming forward with his experiences.

Depending how old your son is, he or you may be able to check out further resources through Don Miguel Ruiz’s  The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom, A Toltec Wisdom Book , and Ken Eagle Feather’s Toltec Dreaming: Don Juan’s Teachings on the Energy Body for further control of astral experiences, and the a fore mentioned Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce for the ‘how’ and ‘what’ of things.

Something to consider, is no one can take away, or talk someone out of their experience, it’s their experience. Take what resonates with you (or your son), and leave the rest behind. For example,  I have similar, and dissimilar experiences from Sylvia Browne. You, and your son, will know what feels right.

Another thing to remember, is that nothing can harm you while you are out of your body. Your ethereal ‘dream body’ is an energetic double, and therefore virtually invulnerable. It’s the understanding, and ‘knowing’ of that, which will enable positive experiences.

I’m glad you enjoyed the book, and thank you for your kind words.

I hope the book and above information will help you and your son.

May all your experiences be joyous ones,

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

 


“Why is Psychic work such a Roller Coaster ride?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2010/01/28 at 7:43 pm

Q: Why is there such highs and lows in this ‘psychic work’?
There are times that info comes streaming in then nothing at all?
Any advice is appreciated.

Thank you! I totally enjoyed the read!! Awesome indeed!

Noelle

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hello Noelle,

Oh can I relate to that Spiritual roller coaster! I’m sure many others out there can too.
Simply put, we get as much as we can handle.

I think one’s current ‘head space’, and emotional state are a big factor, as well as what I consider to be ‘spiritual growth spurts’. If I was exposed to everything I’ve experienced over the last 4 decades in one overnight ‘cram’ session, I’m sure I’d be a little scorch mark on the ground. I’ve discovered for myself, that after an intense workshop, or lecture, I need some ‘down time’, to let all the information sink in and gel a little bit.  After too many days of intense learning, I find myself touching that state of hyper sensitivity that can lead to a state of hyper vigilance. I love a good coffee, however 12 espressos in one sitting isn’t necessarily a ‘good’ thing.

I ’ve certainly noticed a change within myself growing up. As a teen, I was immersed in a quagmire of emotion (weren’t we all?!). I found myself in a constant state of hyper vigilance where the psychic energy surrounding me was frenetic and overwhelming. There was also a fair amount of Dark Energies making their presence known because I wasn’t informed, and didn’t have any tools in the tool box yet for Psychic Protection.

Daily Meditation and Grounding certainly helps balance our state of mind. This enables an open minded approach to new things, as well as coping skills for overwhelming experiences. It’s beneficial to have a non judgmental perspective when taking in a lot of information at once.

I think what goes hand in hand with all this, is the concept that we can’t necessarily force or induce an experience. What’s important is the art of allowing an experience to unfold naturally in the moment, and to be present with it. This is what I would consider a natural pace through stages of spiritual growth.

It certainly is exciting when we experience and learn new things. However we can’t ‘live’ there all the time. There’s a reason for the expression ‘burning the candle at both ends’, it applies here too.

Do your best not to beat yourself up over the seemingly ‘slow’ periods, and perhaps embrace a state of gratitude with each new experience. It’s usually not until we look back and reflect upon things, that we can see how far we’ve come.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

 


“What system of Self Protection do you initiate from unwanted Intrusion?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/12/21 at 6:12 pm

What system of self protection do you initiate to keep from unwanted intrusion/interference? Do you surround yourself in white light etc…?

Note: Great interview on Dreamland.

Fabulous artwork.

You are so articulate and your joyfulness is delightful.

Barbara

Fringe Dweller

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Dear Barbara,

I talked about basic methods of Psychic Protection in the post “Am I Opening a Door I’m  not ready for?” in answer to a similar question. However here are some additional tools.

A good start, is not inviting any Dark Energies ‘in for tea’. When meditating, or intent with prayer, only invite and ask for those of ‘The Light’. Nicole wrote in more detail about Dark Energies and ‘ways to send them packing’ in her Coming Out of the Psychic Closet blog post “A Word on Ouija Boards”.

There are methods of protecting or ‘Smudging’ your home against unwanted or lingering intrusions. Smudging, is a ritual purification by smoke using herbs thought to purify. Many people smudge their home before social gatherings to infuse the space with good energy, and afterward to rid it of any unwanted ones. Energies can cling on to objects as well. I smudge articles I’ve purchased as soon as I bring them home, especially antiques or used items. Everything has an energetic history.

As for personal protection, it’s always a good practice to Ground Yourself. There are a multitude of ways to envision this. It’s a matter of personal preference, and finding a way that works for you. One method if you are standing, is to envision tree roots from your feet and toes embedding themselves deeply into the earth, while silver strands of light extend from your head into the sky above. Other methods involve imagining yourself laying down, with tree roots extending from each of your Chakras to the earth beneath you, while strands of light extend from each of your Chakras to the sky above you. This is a wonderful method to start and end your day with as you lay down in bed.

Thank you for your kind words, and I hope these methods of protection are helpful.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller

 


“Why is there Dark Energy?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Submitted on 2009/11/20 at 2:41 am

Just curious- why do you think there is dark energy if we’re all trying to be positive and all that?

What good does it do to have the dark side?

Fringe Dweller Amber

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Hi Amber,

To answer with one word- BALANCE. It’s difficult to have one point of perspective, without the other. We need to have both for a whole frame of reference. However, for a more detailed answer, check out co-author Nicole’s ‘Coming Out of The Psychic Closet’ Blog post titled ‘The Purpose of Dark Energies’.

Sincerely, The Fringe Dweller

 


A Word on Ouija Boards

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Photo of a Ouija Board for a paranormal article by 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift' co-author Nicole ChaykaA word to the wise on Ouijas or ‘Talking Boards’ as they have been called for centuries. There are two schools of thought on what goes on during a Seance and neither one should be treated as lightly as to call it ‘a game’.    A Ouija, like a pendulum or set of dice is nothing more than an ‘indicator’ that points to yes/no/maybe and or spells out words in order to communicate.  Some believe that it is our own unconscious mind pushing the indicator around giving us the answers to our own questions.  Others think it is messages from the ‘great beyond’.

I think its both.

Similar to Muscle Testing such as that used in Kinesiology whereby we access our subconscious mind testing for allergic reactions, a pendulum or Ouija isn’t so dissimilar in methodology. The body doesn’t lie.  You ask and it tells the unbiased truth.  It can reveal to you what you already know, not what you don’t know.  It does not for example tell you the future.

Then there’s the other stuff.

You might think that Ouija boards are nothing more than a game made up by some toy company to incite the imaginations of kids but they are more, and they can be dangerous.  Actually, it kinda pisses me off that Parker Brothers put these things on the shelves like it was another board game they were selling instead of a Gateway and communication tool for Spirits. Yeah, let’s let a kid going through all the regular teenage stuff play around with that….good idea.  Teenagers are walking soap operas.  Combine all the regular world of adolescent soaps along with a jumble of emotional Telekinetic Energy and you have the making of a cesspool soup.  Negative energetic beings LOVE cesspool soup.  They nosh on it every chance they get.  It’s like mother’s milk to them so when you put a Ouija board into the hands of an unprepared, emotionally immature human caught somewhere between being a child and not quite an adult yet….you might as well open the front door to the spirit world, offer a complete stranger a beer and tell them to take a load off!

So now we’re gonna talk about rules, boundaries and limitations.  Thanks Caesar, it’s not just for dogs.

Poltergeists, or let’s call them assholes for short, enjoy playing with you if you are willing to offer up your ‘attention’ to them to take advantage of.  If you are silly enough to actually take them seriously, follow their advice, or think that they have some special insight because they are from ‘the other side’ they can create havoc and have great fun at your expense.  Teenagers therefore run a great risk of being ‘suckered’ by these assholes who prey upon them and looooove having their attention.  All that lovely teenage angst to manipulate and a willing pair of arms and legs to do their mischief.  What fun!  The best way to send them packing is to simply ignore them. Tell them to go away. Stop playing the game and giving your attention away to them and they’ll grow bored and move on.

It’s the last set of characters that worry me.

Just as in life, there are some dangerous entities who are disincarnate.  They are angry, violent and prey upon those who give them their ear.  Like all dysfunctional relationships they are control freaks, and when you get wise and pull away there is usually a tantrum involved.  Telekinetic energy can be frightening. Having little visits in your dream states when you too are disincarnate….equally frightening. Yes, once they have your attention they will try to isolate you so that they can prey on (and feed on) your negative emotional states. In fact, they hang out in your energetic field (aura) noshing on negativity so if they can induce a state of fear or panic, or depression you have offered yourself up to them via your attention, and your emotional states to be their play thing.  Ever try to break up with a sociopath?  It will be that hard to get rid of them.

I recommend not inviting them in.

Don’t play. You may want to speak to a certain someone but it doesn’t work that way.  You have no control over who is going to show up.  If however you are going do it anyway and not heed my advice then remember that you are creator and your free will is everything. Decree that only those of the light and love may answer your questions via this device.  Smudge the space before and after to cleanse any negative energies from your space.  And if you find yourself with any ‘cling-ons’ who don’t want to let go don’t be afraid to ask for help.  Isolation and keeping stuff to yourself is NOT the way to go.  Invite in the light.  Love and Light, Love and Light, Love and Light.  Sour the damn milk. Never, never, never keep stuff like this to yourself. If you don’t know about smudging seek out a local Shaman through a spiritualist church or organization and ask for help.

Now the fireplace is over there in the corner….place the board there.  They make damn good kindling.

Namaste, Nicole

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The Purpose of Dark Energies

Nicole Chayka is the co-author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'A question that has come up a number of times needs to be addressed so I will take a poke at it…..What is the purpose of Dark Energy? Why can’t we live in Mr. Roger’s neighborhood all the time or put another way, Why can’t we all just get along?

An overused metaphor but it works.   There is no Light without Dark. We need the contrast to tell the difference.  In life we are energetic light beings walking around in a body having a human experience, and who we are is reflected back to us via those around us.  What I mean by that is how we respond to events placed in our path tells us more of who we are, and furthermore gives us the opportunity to rise to the level of love, and test our beliefs in a very concrete way.  How many heroes arise from the ugliness brought on by tyrants?  Yes, even ‘dark energy’ in the form of another human being allows us to measure ourselves by our core truths and convictions.  Thus, the question of positive and negative polarities themselves come into question.  What is one without the other? Now I’ve answered the question as though the dark energies were externalized, however, there is a dark side that exists within each one of us. The human experience has a wide range of emotions.  Energy is neither good nor bad but thinking makes it so.  What you decide to do with it is a matter of free will, and free will again, will define you. So my answer in short is that dark energy serves a purpose in order to offer you an opportunity to exercise your free will, and thus define what you choose to be. So let me ask you this, “How do you wanna show up?”  Circumstances don’t define us, they reveal us.

After 2300+ odd past lives I can tell you a) I’m a very slow learner and b) I’ve played every role from the self absorbed-control freak bastard to whatever it is I am now.  I’d like to think I’m inching my way towards love, compassion and enlightenment, but I may have a ways to go.  It may take another 99 lives or perhaps in a burst of inspiration I’ll get a hole in one.  The point is we are all eternal beings who will get there eventually on our own schedule.  If we do the math it’s inevitable.  Eternal = a very long time so time or the constant now is literally on your side.  I digress.  If you think of the ‘dark side’ as being an aspect of yourself that you pass through en route to embodying love, then having been the jerk will certainly allow you an insiders peek to understand and ultimately forgive other jerks as they trundle down their dark path reeking havoc on the rest of us. Namaste. The God in me acknowledges the God in you. We are one.  Takes on a whole new meaning when you think of it this way no?

Namaste, Nicole

 


“Am I opening a Door that I’m not ready for?”

'Ask the Fringe Dweller' Blog Question for Monica Holy author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'Submitted on 2009/09/27 at 5:37am

Dear Fringe.

As a kid, I actually believed I saw spirits. When I was told they weren’t real I stopped. When I was teenager, I saw some again. One was an actual ancestor Indian chief, full head dress and all. Then they would only appear at time of emotional crisis, and always they were positive and encouraging. Never a bad thought and always trying to teach me to use talents. And I have had great success in my career. So… I’d decided I wanted to do hospice volunteering. I thought that would be good to give back. But I’m worried. Will I be sensing more spirits. I encountered a few before recently. Non-threatening. But if I do this, am I opening a door that I am not ready for?

‘Wish to remain Anonymous’

Excerpt of painting 'Grey Wolf' by Psychic, artist Monica Holy, author of 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

Dear ‘Wish to remain Anonymous’.

This happens all too often…as kids we don’t question things…we have no inhibitions…it’s the behavioral conditioning that we’re brought up with, and surrounded by that starts to mold us with new beliefs. Even our culture, or the religion we’re brought up in has influences. I’m guessing that if I were to ask you, at the time you saw these spirits, in your heart you knew them to be real? As I said, I’m merely guessing this. It’s something to reflect upon and ponder yourself how you felt.

My Spirit Guides too, come in low points of my life, and they have been of the deepest understanding, with a love so unconditional that’s astounding in its intensity…I find  words don’t properly reflect what I feel.

I think you are blessed to have these communications….what a gift your are receiving !

It sounds like you have a good heart…an open heart…which means yes you’re more likely to be sensitive to anything around you. You’re most likely Empathic as well. I ’d say you’re chances are pretty good to sensing more Spirits if you allow yourself to be open to that experience.

I feel you asked the right question about potentially opening a door that you may not be ready for.  I don’t know your knowledge of these experiences, but you would do well to learn more about Psychic Protection. Now I’m not plugging my book here when I say I go into steps to protect yourself, but to repeat all here would take too long, and if I simply cut and pasted my publisher would have a copyright fit…lol…..(hey, we need to keep our humor).

The simplest and quickest way to protect yourself when you feel unwanted energy, is to mentally surround yourself in white light…come up with a visualization that works for you. Have that bubble of white light extend out to your personal space as far as what feels comfortable for you. Some people envision a cascade of white honey running down the top of their head to their toes…whatever works for you.

Now, most importantly…send love…mentally send love, extend love outwards…and repeat in your head or out loud as often as you need to…ALL THAT IS NOT MINE, PLEASE LEAVE’.

You can even envision a Mirrored Box around you (I actually did a painting of this for chapter 4 of the book , called ‘The Greys’. You can view the painting THE GREYS on the website). It’s a two way mirror. You can see out, however those outside of your mirrored box, only see reflected back what they project onto you. It comes back to them, it doesn’t pass through your mirrors…only Love can penetrate in…and Love is what is sent out to them.

I’d like to recommend an incredible book that I feel could help immensely. It’s called The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom, A Toltec Wisdom Book by Don Miguel Ruiz…it’s a Toltec Wisdom book which fits nicely with your First Nation Spirit Guides. It was a huge help to me, it really enabled me to work with people…all people, those living and even those not.

I hope this helped.

Sincerely, the Fringe Dweller

 


The Greys: artwork from Chapter Four

acrylic on canvas = 5.5’h x 7’w

Artwork 'The Greys' by Monica Holy, psychic, artist and author of the paranormal book 'Fringe Dweller on the Night Shift'

THE GREYS

Dream Journal entry:

Wednesday, January 14 2003

It was not so bad at first when it was like the crunching of dry autumn leaves underfoot. But still, a small chill ran up my spine and down the backs of my legs like a breeze from the long shadows of approaching winter. A warning of the cold.

The sound grew then, as I listened. What is that? I thought. Is that leaves? No, not leaves. It was too persistent, too relentless. It was something in the walls, something wanting to come out. It was more of a scuttling. Like a swarm of a thousand insects, coming out of the walls, perhaps, coming from nowhere and everywhere. Images flitted through my mind—the dust bowl, the trembling farmer, Egypt, locusts with mandibles clicking in voracious appetite.

The hairs all down the back of my neck stood on end. I felt a nameless dread. Then I saw them—the source of my growing fear. Grey figures— looming, needy, hungry, always wanting. They were huddling together, bound to each other by their dark energies, by the heaviness of their woe. They clothed themselves in it, this woe, gathering it around themselves for whatever ragged warmth it might provide. But of course there was no warmth. There was only poverty, cold, rejection and aching, desperate hunger.

As one they surged towards me, wanting. Wanting what? Nothing, everything. Just wanting, empty, filled with lack. Huge with lack.

All of a sudden, I felt tiny—a small light in the oppressive despair that moved toward me. If that darkness reached me, I would be lost. I would be consumed, left nothing but a stalk stripped of its grain.

My mind hurried to build the box of mirrors that would protect me. Above, below, forward and back, the reflective surfaces began to take shape, but it was too late. Already I could feel the dark energy starting to suck me under.

“Ooooh, #%&*!!!” I thought, “get me outta here!” And with that I was gone.

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